Drops In a Bucket (for the overthinker)

I expected the bucket to be close to full. It’s 5:27 am and the absolute only reason I am awake right now is because of the overwhelming sound of leaking water. Yes, leaking!…….from the roof. The joys of being a homeowner right ? I got up, turned on the light, put down a shower curtain lining and a bucket directly under the leak. I listened as the rain got heavier and showed no sign of slowing down. I looked up at the ceiling which now has a crack from the water damage. I prayed. After a while, I got up to dump the bucket which I imagined would be full. But it wasn’t. It was nowhere near full. All the water I heard dropping into the bucket had barely coated the bottom and it really got me thinking (what else is new).

If you are an over thinker like me, there are few moments where you aren’t creating stress within yourself by thinking about every little thing. Things that may or may not happen. And if you are also a Christian, there is a constant tug of war with simply trusting God or worrying. But much like the amount of water in the bucket, things are rarely what they seem. Problems are rarely as big as they feel. And even beyond that, we simply aren’t in control. If my roof “decided” to fall in right now because of the leak, there would be nothing I could do to stop it. Nothing.

Now sis, I know the very idea of not being in control can be absolutely frightening. The what ifs make it difficult to remain calm right ? But your bucket isn’t as nearly as full as you think or even as full as it feels. The daily stressors we encounter are literally just drops in a bucket. Most of them never amounting to much. Work is crazy ? Ok. It will probably be crazy tomorrow. Bills seem non stop? But look at you, blessed to pay every one. Have a good cry if you need to and/or talk it out. But most importantly, check your bucket. Monitor your bucket and the drops within it. It may not be as full as you think. And if by chance it is, just dump it sis. You got this !

-An over thinker

As always, thanks for reading !