When did this happen?!……..Mommy to a 4 year old

Last night, for the second night in the row, my son did not sneak into my room. I woke up throughout the night and had actual space to stretch out. No foot in my face or anything. And ok, I know we bought the big boy bed. And, I know we had the conversation about how him sleeping in his bed all night would help him charge his powers (superheroes are big in my household, don’t judge me). But it’s been two nights! Now it is starting to hit me. My baby is growing up.

Four years ago, at this time, I remember being soooo excited to meet baby boy. My mom was ironing on letters to make Team Preston shirts while I was triple checking my hospital bag. It had been 3 long trimesters of feeling this little person grow inside of me and imagining how he would look and even who he would become. Now let’s be honest, the idea of giving birth was nerve wrecking and scary but those feelings faded quickly. But then, there was discharge day when I realized I had to actually take this baby home and care for it. Would I be a good mom? Would maternal instincts just kick in? Would I actually use the baby blender to make all of his baby food? Yup! And more.

Today, I am the mother of an amazing 4 year old who is affectionate, kind, well mannered, has an amazing and interesting vocabulary and for his birthday all he asked for was to go to the park (could have saved money on Lego land honestly). Sometimes I look at him, knowing he has no idea how many days he has saved me. How many times, life got way too tough but I refused to give up because I knew I had to make him proud. I remember hearing his small voice ask if I was ok as if he knew the times when I wasn’t. One of the best compliments a mom can receive is for her child to tell her she is the “best mommy” and he makes sure to do just that even when it’s just to stay up past bedtime.

Happy 4^th Birthday Preston! I pray each year of your life is better than your last. I pray we always remain close and that I become nothing short of your best friend or at least second to Spider-Man. I pray you always get as excited to spend time with me although I know right around pre teenage years that will be asking for a lot. I am so grateful for the presence my baby boy has been in my life, and how he has changed me for the better. You make being a mom easy kid. He can’t read just yet but wish my baby boy, my Gemini (in every single way) a Happy 4^th Birthday!

Mommy Loves you Preston James ! Thanks for being my super hero!